I Am Vain

I’ve recently come to accept the fact that I am vain. The reason I don’t try hard with my appearance is because I have a perfection problem. I like everything to be perfect (south Node in Virgo) however I don’t need it to be perfect. There isn’t anything wrong with making mistakes it is simply…

Stay Positive

Stay positive, stay positive, stay positive it’s all a load of bullshit! No one can stay positive all the time. All this be positive stuff that’s everywhere isn’t helpful advice. If someone has just been diagnose with a terminal illness do you tell them to “stay positive”? No because it’s shit advice. No one seems…

Unconditional Love

It is said that we are not upset that another person doesn’t love us but that we are upset because we withhold our love when they don’t & it’s true because it is killing me not feeling like I can love him because it isn’t there in return. My love isn’t conditional but I have…

A Mother By Default

I always thought me & my brother would have kids at the same time. It was like a feeling I always had & I am just now realising that I was right. Although we didn’t have kids at the same time in the technical/physical sense, in every other way we actually did. His son feels…

Goodbye

I am done with all these fake fucking relationships! The door to my life is closed now, it’s not a bloody revolving one. You left for the umpteenth time & I’m shutting the door this time. I’ve had enough. Why should I keep it open? Times have changed, I have changed and I no longer…

We’re Not Leopards

Many people like to use the popular phrase “A leopard can’t change its spots” when negatively referring to someone who others thought had changed, but then it turns out they really hadn’t because they did something that they did in the past. I mean there are crabs, fishes and lions but even the zodiac doesn’t…

I Can’t Be Bothered

I can’t be bothered to do this. I really really really can’t be bothered. It’s not even my work & it benefits me in no way whatsoever. I’m not passionate about it, it really has absolutely nothing to do with me & here I am thinking why the hell did I agree to this. This…

My Haven

I just want my own space. My own personal sanctuary. It’s so frustrating not having somewhere that is my own. I can picture it so clearly in my mind and it’s depressing not having it. I don’t even care about the cost. I wish I was just openly selfish sometimes because I would have it…

Self-Expression

Expression that seems to be the recurring word that I keep seeing at the moment. I need to express myself in a way that is authentic & true to me. As easy as it sounds when you have repressed your desire to express yourself so much that it has become an integral part of your…

Stop Fighting

By subconsciously fighting who I truly was, my body began to physically fight itself. This vessel holds a Goddess spirit. It’s clearly strong enough I just need to stop rejecting it. I can heal it once I accept it needs healing. There is no shame in being fearful of what I can do without the…